Chris Gill

Virtual Growing Pains

In Personal, Technology on May 17, 2012 at 8:16 pm

As this website reaches its two year anniversary, I explore how online communication has allowed me to progress personally and professionally 

This week marks the two year anniversary of this website’s launch, which is a true milestone for me. During this time, I have gone from a career-hungry yet self-doubtful graduate, to an employed writer with almost a year’s experience under my belt.

Throughout this journey, in which there have been many highs and lows, this site has been a platform for me to express myself. In many ways it’s also been a form of cathartic creative release when I’ve needed it to be.

So this week I got to thinking about how fortunate I am to not only live in an age where technology allows such accessible communication, but to live in a part of the world where free speech (to a certain degree) is entirely permitted.

I’ve grown up in an age where using a computer comes as naturally to me as tying a shoe lace. I went through my adolescence while social media began its infancy through websites such as Friendster and MySpace. Technology has very much been a part of my own evolution from child to young adult.

This contemplation was not only aided by my website’s second birthday, but also by spending time with my 92-year-old grandmother over the last couple of weekends.

Speaking to her baffled me to think of an era where people socialised without updating their “status” and responding to “friend requests”.  A time when people discovered each other’s interests through conversation and not just noticing what they have “liked” on each other’s “timelines.”

Although I envy this age, to an extent I was a part of it. I feel fortunate to have enjoyed a childhood and early adolescence free from an online presence or identity. Today they are as important as qualifications or experience.

On the flipside, there are so many things to thank this age of scalable interaction for, including the transmission of my work. I remember the first time I published my poetry online at the age of about 13 on a website called MyPoetry.com.

I wrote anonymously, of course, as like many teenagers I was extremely unsure of myself and my work at the time. Still, I remember so clearly the feeling of validation when other poets, or “users”, would comment on my prose, pointing out the parts they liked and analysing the hidden symbolism. This was something I had never experienced, which beat any praise a school teacher could have provided, hands down.

Next came picture comments on MySpace. Anyone from the “MTV Generation” knows what these are and whether they admit it or not, how they made them feel. What could have been more self-gratifying than having complementary comments left by friends (or often slight acquaintances) boosting your self-confidence at a time when it was so needed.

As “Generation Y” has grown older, we’ve begun to look for this same validation in the steps our careers take. MySpace became Facebook and our biggest concern now is how many “likes” the companies we work for have. It seems that whether we like it or not, the online social revolution is here to stay and it will be interesting to see what its next phase will be.

The other online phenomena we have seen emerge throughout the late 90s and early 00s is of course, blogging. A portmanteau of the term “web log”, the phrase “blog” was first used by founding partner and president of Adaptive Path, Peter Merholz, in 1999. “To blog” means “to edit one’s weblog or to post to one’s weblog”, which is essentially a personal journal published online.

When I was studying Journalism at university, the idea of blogging never appealed to me as the market seemed so oversaturated. We were encouraged to do so by our tutors, which is how this website was originally created. I published it for a project, but vowed to never continue it as I did not want to follow the cyber-crowd.

I wasn’t wrong about the oversaturated market. As of February 2011, there were over 156 million public blogs in existence, a number that made my feeble blog seem like a needle in a thousand haystacks. However it wasn’t until I had a conversation with a good friend over coffee one day that something sparked inside my mind.

“What I look for in a blog is a writer’s personal touch,” she explained to me over her skinny cappuccino, “not just your usual cut-and-paste job.” It was then I realised what had really put me off about the “blogosphere.” It was its lack of credibility through the increase of “Churnalists” putting their work online. I vowed to never become one of them, but instead to make my site my own.

I therefore dropped the term “blog” and now simply refer to this creative platform as a website. Instead of posting daily posts to please, I produce a monthly feature that I dedicate a lot of time and thought to, researching my topic widely before even reaching for my keyboard.

As of today, CWGill.com has had 33,066 unique views, 69 comments and this is my 89th post. Thank you to everyone who has supported its growth, from teething to the (not so) Terrible twos.

I can’t wait to see what its next year will bring.

An Inner Resurrection

In Arts & Culture, Personal on April 8, 2012 at 12:18 pm

The Resurrection of Christ by Paolo Veronese

Whether you’re religious or not, Easter should be a time of rebirth and reassessment

Unless you’re a dedicated Christian, you would most probably argue that the only significance Easter has to you is the long weekend off work. Just like Christmas, religious holidays in the Western world are rarely now thought of for their traditional meanings.

Following on from my piece last month on marriage in the modern world, I got to thinking about tradition again this weekend, but more specifically about religion and its place in our hectic lives. In a world full of war, natural disasters and economic crisis, religion is often ignored or blamed for our problems.

I was fortunate enough to be raised in a home where I was given the choice to decide what I wanted to believe in, which I think ultimately has led to me being far more open-minded to religious and spiritual possibilities.

My experience through others I’ve known is that the more forced religion is upon you as a child, the more you will rebel against it down the line. I think it’s natural to question anything that is put in front of you and labelled ‘the truth.’

As a teenager I became extremely interested in the teachings of Buddhism. I liked, and still like, how Buddhism is as much a philosophy as it is a religion and in comparison to Christianity, is far more geared towards worshipping life than death. What I mean by this is it teaches us to see nature and our planet as sacred, and it doesn’t obsess about celebrating everything that will happen after we die.

It’s this sort of ideal that I think we should all learn from and translate into the way we live our lives, whether this is influenced by a God or not. Without sounding too clichéd, I believe finding God is all about finding yourself and your own inner strength. Whatever you see this ‘light’ or ‘All’ as, it should be what guides you through the dark place that our world so often is.

As I’ve grown older, I still apply aspects of Buddhism to my life but avoid being defined or labelled by any specific or singular belief. I would like to say that nature is my religion, as I honestly feel that through the cold and corporate framework that is city life, the environment is my ‘light’ that guides me through and keeps me grounded and connected to what is real.

So this Easter weekend, despite how much I’m in need of a long weekend off work, I am also giving the true meaning of the holiday a lot of thought and figuring out what it should mean to us today.

We all know how the Christian story goes: the son of God, Jesus Christ, was crucified for the sins of humanity. He then rose again on the third day after his execution, viewed by many Christians as part of God’s plan of salvation and redemption.

I got to thinking about this mindboggling event and what it would mean if the same thing happened today. We still have martyrs and executions in many parts of the world, but this story would never be believed in our modern society. What it makes you realise however is how much the human race still longs to believe in miracles.

So if anything, I see Christianity and its teachings as a metaphor. The death and resurrection of Jesus Christ can be applied to many things that we see happen in our every day culture. We all want to believe in superheroes, whether it is a president or a celebrity. We want someone to have the answers so we can build them up just to watch them fall, then watch them get back up again.

So what Easter will now represent to me, is this grand notion of rebirth that I have such a life-long obsession with. You can feel this reawakening in the spring air and see it in the natural world where plants and flowers are being reborn, furthering my belief in nature as a religion.

If Christ really did die for our sins and remerge from the ashes, then why can’t all of us find this strength within ourselves? Whatever the ‘light’ is to you, make sure that you never let it go out as this is what will lead you to your very own inner Promised Land.

To celebrate this Easter weekend I have given my website its very own spring awakening. With a clean and fresh new look that represents this brand new era; I look forward to all the future thoughts and discoveries that have yet to be expressed.

This is my alternate vision that I can’t wait to share with you all.

Rewriting the Vows

In Arts & Culture, Personal on March 25, 2012 at 4:11 pm

In a world where divorce rates are at an all-time high, does anyone ever really live happily ever after? 

Last weekend I accompanied one of my oldest and closest friends to a meeting with her wedding planner. There we sat, sipping cups of tea in the quaint old-English venue, as questions were fired over about how far she had got with planning her big day.

“Have you thought about having a receiving line?”

“How about the menu?”

“And what about the material for the chair covers?”

Natalie, being one of the most relaxed people I know, flicked through her wedding notepad and answered as best she could. Just seeing how organised she was opened up not only a whole new side to her I hadn’t seen before, but new sides to the concept of marriage that I had barely even considered in the past.

As I reached for the teapot and continued to listen to the wedding planner, the idea of values and tradition began to surface.

“Will you be having a toastmaster?” she asked, to which Natalie speedily declined.

“And who will be making the speeches? Traditionally it’s the father of the bride, the father of the groom and then the best man…”

“They’re all men,” Natalie responded blankly. This is one of the things I admire about my friend most. She has never been afraid to speak out about something she believes in, like women’s rights.

“Well my bridesmaid’s making one,” she continued, “and perhaps I will too.” The wedding planner scribbled this down hesitantly.

Later that day I got to thinking about marriage and the role it now plays in the modern world. Our trip to the wedding planner had happened less than 24 hours after news broke that gay marriage would most probably be legalised in the UK by 2015, a decision being backed by our current government.

As a gay man, this should be fantastic news, and in many ways I think it is. It’s exciting in the sense that I believe everyone should have the right to choose whether they want to get married or not (civil partnership has always felt like a second-rate option to me). Personally however, the idea of marriage has never really had that much appeal.

Perhaps this is because I associate marriage with religion, and although I am in no way an atheist, I have always considered myself as far more spiritual than God-worshipping. However, although the definition of marriage varies from culture to culture, the underlining message remains the same: public recognition that two people are in love and have decided to spend their lives together.

The trouble is, it doesn’t often turn out this way. According to figures from the Office for National Statistics, divorce rates have continued to rise since the 1930s, raising many questions about marriage’s worth in the modern age. The evolution of gender roles has obviously played a big part in this, with women matching and often exceeding the career heights and salaries of men.

Despite the changes in our busy modern world there are still many people who believe, or really want to believe, in marriage and its values. All you have to do is look at the world’s fascination with last year’s marriage between a prince and a young middle class woman to realise how many adults still need to believe in fairy tales.

Perhaps this nostalgic feeling to the ideals of marriage stems back to childhood; from the Disney films we watch and the fairy tales we are told, to simply looking up at our parents. Of course, the reality is that most people don’t have this nuclear family vision surrounding them, devaluing the worth of marriage from day one.

I guess when it boils down to it; we all want to believe in fairy tales. We live in a confusing world that often lacks light or clarity, so the idea that two people in love can make an oath to the world that they will (or at least try to) stay together forever, has to be a positive thing.

Whether it’s in a church in front of a God, or in a park simply in front of your friends, it should always have the same meaning. Whether you’re the same sex or different races, whether you’re a prince or penniless, it should still be about love.

So this summer when I watch one of my oldest friends walk down the aisle, I will be full of joy and pride that she has found the man she loves. She may not have a toastmaster, but she will have her family and friends. She might make her own speech, but then when has tradition ever been able to silence her?

Our weddings might not look the way we had imagined them as children. Many of us won’t want to get married at all. However if you allow yourself to love and be loved, even if it’s within yourself, then the world will always be filled with light and we will all live happily ever after.

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